Have you ever followed someone whose eyes
are covered when your eyes are also covered?
It’s kind of scary. You know if
they could see they would lead you carefully through all obstacles and dangers,
but since they are blind too, it could mean BIG
trouble. The thing is, neither one of
you can see what lies ahead, so how can you trust that all will be fine…
I actually think I’ve been treating God
with the same lack of trust that I would a blind guide- even though I know better. God has always been (Jn. 2:2) and sees all
(Hb. 4:13 ) from the beginning from
the end (Is. 46:9,10). He knew my first breath even before my conception and He knows my
last (in this flesh); and as He watched Adam in the garden of Eden and Jesus on
the cross, so He already sees Jesus coming again. His ways, His knowledge is
far beyond our comprehension (Jb. 36:26; Is. 55:8,9). So, why do I not trust Him the way I should? Because I can’t see what lies ahead… Silly me!
And when Jesus
passed on from there, two blind ones followed Him, crying and saying, Son of
David, have mercy on us. And when He had come into the house, the blind men
came to Him. And Jesus said to them, Do you believe that I am able to do this?
They said to Him, Yes, Lord. Then He touched their eyes, saying, According to
your faith let it be to you. And their eyes were opened. And Jesus strictly
charged them, saying, See, let no one know. But going out, they made Him known
in all that land. Mt. 9:27-31
These two men followed Jesus- literally blindly.
They knew Jesus could take care of them. They cried out to Him for mercy. They
followed Him into somebody’s house. That’s boldness ‘cause I don’t know if I’d
walk into someone’s house without being invited… They believed He could help
them, and so they weren’t letting Him out of their reach. They came to Him. Jesus opened their
eyes, and they went out proclaiming His deeds.
My life (condensed) so far:
Okay Jesus, I believe so I’ll
follow. Wait, I want to sin for a while. Gosh, I'm sorry and I'm back. Wait again, it looks better on the other side. ... I’m back again- this time for good. Oh, you didn’t do what I expected so I’m
mad at You. … I’m sorry. I was wrong and I’m back again. Why do You hate me so
much that You allow all these crappy things to happen. … I was wrong; I’m back
again … I don’t understand, still I’ll follow. I don’t fully trust, but I want
to. … Help. I’m tired of messing up. Will I ever be faithful? God help me- for
I cannot do life without You!
Okay, so it’s not comfortable here, but it
will be okay now because You are with me. Thank You. I don’t need to see or
know as long as I remember that You see and know and You will do as You see fit
in my life and in other’s.
And since I know I am unable to maintain this walk
with You in my own strength, please give me the faith I need to follow You wherever
You lead.
And the strength to actually follow.
I love You Lord,
Master,
Savior