This afternoon I was reading Ps. 27:8 where David spoke to the Lord and said, When You said, “Seek My face,” My heart said to You, “Your face, LORD, I will seek.” NKJV What a wonderful sentiment! David is talking about personal contact with his Lord where they spent time getting to know one another. The Lord said of David he was “a man after his own heart,” 1 Sam. It sounds to me like they BOTH sought to know each other well. That really speaks to my heart; can I say the same of me?
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
I’ve been thinking about that day and the struggle we went through. The last few weeks have been similar for me in that my body has been struggling to continue ‘moving forward’. It wants to give in, to just stop, but I keep saying ‘no’ and moving forward, albeit slowly. It is difficult to keep my eyes on the Lord but I know He is faithful and true*, and He will stick with me through this time**. The Lord God is my strength (Hab. ) and His grace will be sufficient for me for His strength will cause me to endure. (2 Cor. 12:9)
Lord, I trust in You.
*Heb. 12:2- Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith…
Rev. 19:11- And I saw heaven opened, and behold a white horse; and he that sat upon him was called Faithful and True,
**Heb. 13:5- … for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee. KJV
Monday, May 09, 2011
Some people long to go back to their childhood or teenage years, but not me. While I wouldn’t mind my body being young, energetic and healthy again, I definitely don’t ever want to be in the same head space I was in back then. My teenage years were filled with self doubt, confusion, uncertainty about who I was, my purpose, where I belonged, and doubt as to whether or not anyone loved me.
All that changed for me the year I turned sixteen. Determined to find genuine love, I got involved in the Catholic Charismatic movement, and for the first time in my life (despite weekly church services since birth) I heard the real gospel message- that Jesus Christ loved me, died on the cross for my sins, that He wanted me to believe, repent and give my life to Him. It was incredible to find out the God of all creation wanted a relationship with me!
Twenty eight years later and there are some things of which I am certain. I know them beyond knowing. They are so entrenched in my being, that there is no lingering doubt. Hence the reason I would never wish to return to my youth…
-God is real.
-Only God could create this universe in all its complexities.
-God the Father, Jesus, and the Spirit love me.
-Jesus will return one day and I will be with forever with my Lord
Because of these truths I am no longer filled with self doubt, confusion, and uncertainty about who I am; I understand my purpose on this earth, I know where I belong, and I know I am loved. What proof of these truths do I offer? I offer myself as evidence. The very fact that I now live, breathe and move is proof, for I would not be alive today if it weren’t for Him.