Yesterday it rained; actually it poured. The skies were overcast much of the day. There’s been a lot of rain lately, in fact, record levels. It is dismal looking and depressing for many people. Today it is blue skies with big, white, puffy clouds scattered amidst the blue. The various greens of the trees and brown branches contrast outside of the window beckoning me to come and spend time outside. Perhaps I will…
Our lives are not much different than the weather. Days with rain, seasons of rain that can bring us down if we focus to much on our dismal surroundings, contrasted with days of blue skies and warmth that for some of us seem to be very few and far between. It is difficult to continue on when we know the ‘weather’ will turn again. We pray for better weather, but sometimes it does not come and we get discouraged. We want to give up. Will sunshine ever return???
One time I read a friend’s testimony which began by saying (something like) it had been smooth sailing most of her life up until a few years beforehand. Immediately, there was a flinch in my stomach (jealousy) and a part of me wanted to scream in frustration as the realization hit that my life seemed more like 35+ dismal years with just a few clear, happy days. Why me?
Just as quickly I remembered the goodness of God through it all and how I loved my life with Him and wouldn’t change it for the world. See, it took all those gloomy days to bring me to this particular place in life- real and exciting life- with Him. (Why so long? Perhaps it is my stubbornness…) But I finally realize that whether we are Christians or not, some days it sprinkles, some days it pours, some days it’s too cold and others too hot; many days are simply boring or unremarkable; life continues at its own pace and I can’t stop it. The only thing I can do is change my response to it.
I’d love to say I follow my own hard learned wisdom every time things go poorly, but the truth is that I still throw myself pity parties now and then. Wake up, body hurting, head pounding, friends call needing uplifting, husband cranky, nothing at the store you wanted, car breaks down, tow truck is late, house filthy, roof leaking, bathroom walls held together by duck tape and tarp, bills looming with not enough pay to cover it, being pulled in 20 directions, everyone looking to you for answers except your teens who think you know nothing, overwhelmed… Get the picture? I’ve been there, done that, and only by God’s grace, survived. Now it seems more often I remember…
Facing pain, torment, possible death, disease, violence or abuse, job loss, or the innumerable awful things that can face you in life can seem impossible, and just may be IF a person is alone, but I am NOT alone for God is with me: every second, hour, day week, month, year, decade to forever. I don’t have to be alone again. I don’t have to walk alone again. I don’t have to face the storms of life alone ever again. And even on my pity party days, the Lord is awaiting me with open arms seeking to let me in. I choose to face dismal days with my Love, my Lord and Savior!
And as for those times I forget, mire in the muck or get disappointed with Your decision to allow these trials in my life, I ask that You remind me of all the good You do, all I have learned and all that has come from the bad so that my stay in misery would be shorter each time until I face every new storm arm in arm with You in strength and victory. Let me stand with You, facing the storm yelling, ‘Here I am! You can’t take me down ‘cause I am NOT alone!’
...lo, I am with you always*, even unto the end* of the world*.
*G3956, G2250- each, every, whole: day, time period
*G4930- completion, consummation, end
*G165- for ever, an unbroken age, eternity